8 Weeks to go

Only 8 weeks till little baby is born. We have decided on a name but I'll keep it a surprise for a little while longer. She is now so active. I lay next to Evelyn at night and it is as if she is there lying between us. If we are too close together she kicks vigoursly as if to get more room. "Dad you're squashing me!" I imagine her complain but I think she really does like me allready. Evelyn says that baby acts different when I play with her than when other people put their hands on her belly. She is always most active at night when Evelyn is relaxed and I guess there is a little more space for playtime. I remember one night where I could give a little push and then she would give a push back in answer. This game when on for a while. I wonder what it must be like for her with no knowledge of anything in the outside world for reference. What are these things that push and poke, the strange atonal noises of daddy trying to sing to her, the bright and low red's of night and day, the uncomfortable compression of Evelyn trying to tie her shoe laces. None of that has any reference to her. I wish one day I could ask her about it but it seems to be a memory that for children slips into the deep unconscious quickly. Maybe at the moment there is no real concious, no serial lines of thought. Perhapps at the moment for her it is just all one big watering feeling, one that will stay with her for life, a vauge memory of happy times with Mum and Dad watching her grow and getting excited to see her face for the first time.

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